I'm sorry. There's just so much going on in my head and my heart right now. I fought so hard last year when XH told me to leave to get my life back to a happy place. I was just about there when he came back. Now, I'm even more behind than I was. I love him. I do. So much. But I can't make him change and he doens't want to change. But I want to be happy and I know I deserve to be happy.
So as best as I can, it's going to be about me now. I have somethings that have been in my mind for a while and it's time I put them in play. Yes, in my heart, deep down inside, I hope XH comes home a changed man and everything is wonderful. But I'm not stupid, and I know that the chance of that happening is about the same as me getting Wes to move to the South.
So he's a roommate now. And I will move on with my life. I'm still going to talk to him. But I'm not sure what I'm going to say. But I will before I do it. I don't know what my future holds for me, but I know it will be happy. I can't live like this anymore. And I know I'm the only one who can change it.
Thank you all again, for listening to me, arguing with me, confusing me and telling me like it is, even when I just can't take it. You all are a great bunch of people and I'm very thankful for each and everyone of you.
