Hope, I know how you feel, really, I'm right there too this week. My range of emotions so far has been sad and cry, angry never gonna call him all week, anxious on the edge of my seat waiting for the next second maybe he'll call now, and finally today - got a txt mssge, gee thanks. A couple things I am trying hard to remember is 1) he is visiting with the kids and it's their time together and 2) even if I was there with him I would be back burner and 2nd fiddle to him anyway, always has been that way when we visit his old stomping grounds. It's not fair that I should monopolize his time to talk to me while it's his vacation with them. So try and let him go and be happy for him. Send him a mssge that doesn't imply or ask anything, but says hi, hope you're having a good time, hope you're enjoying yourself,etc........

I'm struggling with the same things as you again this week, still sick and coughing/gagging, but I AM going to go have fun this weekend. Hope you can find some happy things too!

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.