Yes, I’m back, feeling a bit cheeky and very refreshed after a long summer break.
This is my first week back at work and it’s a short week – Australia Day tomorrow and I’ve got rec leave on Friday – so v. nice weekend of gardening, seeing friends and family and of course all the ‘community festival’ activities for Aust Day.
I’ve had a very productive summer. I moved into my new house. Packing up the old one was a mammoth task and sadder than I thought it would be. My new garage/shed is full to the rafters with boxes of stuff that I’m going to either have to sell at a garage sale or take to the tip.
The move was hectic. I had to have the new house basically emptied of everything (curtains/carpet/screens/etc) then repainted, new floor put down, the electricity rewired – big job that’s still underway. Still waiting for new computer (step-sons took the old one) hence my quietness around here for the past month or so and have decided that the 50 year old kitchen I thought I could live with will really have to go – so mortgaging my soul to the devil banks …. Again.
H kind of helped packing up the house, but it was pretty awful for both of us. I still can’t figure out why it is that neither of us seem to be able to admit to each other that this separation is what we want, but here we are anyway.
I haven’t really seen him or spoken to him since the move. The financial settlement turned out quite well in my favour (do you think that’s about guilt?), and now that our stuff is split up there isn’t any real reason for us to speak.
Although he does weird stuff – he had our mail redirected from the old house to our new respective addresses, but he had his sent to me, rather than his work or his girlfriend’s house. Weird and pretty annoying. RFD17 said he comes to the house sometimes during the day too, when I’m out. One of my step sons has been coming over to watch the tennis and then tends to sleep over, so H “pops in” when step son is there …
I’ve been catching up on everyone’s stiches and my haven’t some of us come a long way?
I’ve also been reading some of the newer members threads and the discussion around when people have had enough and want to get off the roller coaster – I remember feeling like that – but the thing is, I guess this summer I’ve realised I don’t have a lot of control of this ride and I just have to see it out – it’s not like you can get off even if you want to.
I’ll be over to see you all during the next day or two – in particular Kismet, Anna, Hope, March4th, Yoyo, Beth, Sassy, Heather, NYS, Dodger, Phase3 and Jabez – you guys are really kicking it. I can’t say strongly enough how far you’all have come and how much taking this journey with you enabled me to finished last year and begin this year with dignity and a peaceful heart.
2006 is going to be great.
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
