You haven't done anything terrible. Breathe in, breathe out. You sound a little scared and overwhelmed. But you're all adults, you'll all be okay.
If you think about it some more and realize this wasn't something you wanted to do, figure out why you did it and how you'll avoid doing it next time. If it is something you wanted to do, then relax and figure out what you want to do next.
You're okay. You've been through a lot. This doesn't have to be a big deal unless you want it to be. Cut yourself a little slack and be who you want to be from this point on. Because you're great, and there's only one person who sort of doesn't see that. You'll work through this just fine. Just release your anxiety a little bit!
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