I forgot to mention a few things. Two weeks ago after sighting the OM & WAW at DD's performance and then messing up my choir part, I felt so bad that I had to talk to the choir director. She is a friend of mine and used to (may still be) a friend of WAW. The choir director also knows OM and is best friends w/OM's sister. I apologized to the choir director and told her why I was so distracted. She accepted my apology and said that the decision of WAW & OM did not affect our friendship. I felt much better b/c I apologized. I did much better in choir this past week.
This past Fri PM, I told two other friends from church about WAW & OM. They had a relationship w/WAW and at one time w/OM. I just couldn't face my friends 2 or 3 times a week and not have them know the truth about what happened b/w WAW & me. We are still friends and I feel that the air is cleared b/w us.
I have no plans to tell anyone else about WAW & OM. After 15 months of separation, I don't think that I did it out of spite or to hurt WAW. I felt that by keeping the secret, I was enabling the lifestyle.
And so, early on this Thanksgiving morning, I am counting my blessings. My faith in God to lead me thru this, my circle of 5 who have supported me thru this (my Mom & Dad, 2 brothers and 1 friend). And especially D15 & D13 who make my life worth the living b/c they bring me such joy and sometimes challenge. And my friends who have stuck with me. And you, my DB friends who empathize with me, but do not pity me, by keeping me on the road to PMA and staying solution focused.
