DD's have off this week, so I took off from work as well. We're not planning anything special. Cleaned around the house went shoe shopping! Played ping-pong w/DD's. Took the dogs to the vet and such. I even worked out today. Just generally being together. I love being a dad!
After each crappy thing (my perception) that WAW does, it gets easier and easier to "drop the fricken rope". On Sunday something happened that reawakened the me in me. Someone expressed interest in me. Not as in a dating relationship, but I've been nursing her PC back to life and he wanted to repay me by taking me to a game. Let me restate that this is not a dating relationship, but it is a woman being my friend. It really boosted my PMA. It told me that there are women out there who, when the time is right, will want to be my friend and maybe more.
I've decided to start working on my "Dobson letter". I may post it here for review or I may have it reviewed by a DB coach. This will be my "Christmas gift" to WAW. I've read that men are not ready to move on (oh how I hate that phrase) until they find someone else. I really can't say that I've found someone else, but I have found that there will be someone else someday.
I feel so much different this Thanksgiving than last. Even tho' I don't have DD's this T'giving, I'm happier. I feel lighter. I'm out from under the cloud of worrying about all I say and do and if it will upset WAW. Each time I email to talk to her, I'm cheery and acting as if, but in between time, I'm not fretting and obsessing about the sitch.
Spiritually, I have really turned this sitch over to God. If He wants us to get back together, then He will make it happen. I'll be open to it. If He has other plans for me and I have other work to do for Him, then I'm willing to go along with that too. I'm thankful for my DD's, family, friends and DB friend who have been willing to read my vents and offer opinions and have been willing to consider opinions that I've posted.
