I'm sorry you are tired out. I understand. Maybe you should ask yourself if you are really doing the right thing for the kids. What I mean is, if having your H. back is going to make you very tired, very unhappy, etc., is that really the best way for you to feel around the children? I know it is scary to think about being a single mom; my sister is a single mom. Heck, I'm scared about possible D. and I don't even have children caught up in this mess. But you have to remember that long term, your mental well-being is the most important thing. And you don't sound happy that your husband is back.
Sending you a big hug.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
