The thing is, we ARE lovers a lot of the time, and no nearer. Then we're not lovers (like now) yet it's still there, underneath the surface, and I'm supposed to be his 'ex' when this happens.
I cannot tell you how difficult it is to be 'friends' or even 'civil', if not friends, with someone who left you, who says you are an ex, yet looks at you every time with heartbroken eyes and eyes that say 'ILY' all the time.
It's nearly impossible to be friends with someone you know wants you, which he does. Ugh. It just makes me feel hateful towards him.
