Greek I feel for you I have been there and still from time to time think about it, I have tryed to OD walk into the sea and even tried to drill a hole through my chest into my heart because i lost everything, ( i did try to od before i left house) it was then that i found out i have depression and had for 2 years, i know its not an excuse for what i put my W through but there is a reason for the way you , me and many other feel that way and we need the love and help of our S not for them to ignores us just makes things worse. keep your chin up

Hugs from me, together we can climb out of the hell hole