My day has been horrible, and after a stressful morning and worrying about these fines I have to pay and how I am going to cover it, I got in after trekking miles and my milk spliting all over the road outside (well, I saved some of it), to find a message on my answer machine from Andy, sounding very tired and upset.

He said

'It looks like your dream was right again. The prognosis isn't good. He's not going to make it, I'm at the hospital now. I'll try to call you later. Don't ring my house as the girls are there and they don't know yet, I'll talk to you later.'

To give you some background detail, at the beginning of October, before Andy's dad got sick, I had a dream of 2 goldfish swimming in a goldfish bowl - now normally when I dream of fish, someone dies (it is my symbol of death), so I said to Andy that day 'I sure hope it isn't me who is going next' and he laughed and said it probably meant something else this time, then 2 days later his dad was rushed to hospital.

So ever since then, the 2 of us have been worrying whether or not the 'fish' dream will materialize and that's what he meant on his answer machine message when he said 'it looks like your dream was right again.'

Sometimes I hate having this ability because you see all the bad stuff, too and I feel guilty that I said 'I hope it isn't me'.

I can't believe I was out when he phoned Talk about rubbish XW So he's at the hospital 50 miles away, watching his dad die, and I'm stuck here unable to help.

Jo.