I read your post and I guess I can't understand what good will come out of the relationship for either of you. Deceit, lies, lack of trust, etc. It's not a fluke or a mistake after many years of loving marriage. I can understand why you'd want to stay together - the history, the many years invested, the memory of the good times, the thought that maybe you love her and she might still love you, etc. But all that is gone. From the surface it seems like there are too many issues to overcome. You're young, why not think about moving on? You gave yourself a fresh start on life with the divorce. I would never recommend divorce to anyone, but your are divorced. Make the most of it.
