Hanging on the Best Parts 2

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I'm okay, maybe a little melancholy while I've been mulling things over and thinking about the past. In some ways H is right, there's been plenty of pain and hurt for both of us. But I think we've had fun times and have done good things and are very compatible people with each other. It's all how you look at it, is the glass half full or half empty? and 50% isn't good enough. My opinion is we still share the same passions and hobbies and interests and goals. What I don't know is what H's opinion is, and he won't share that with me anymore. And that makes me sad too.

Oh well, I think instead of riding the rollercoaster I'm going to ride the merry-go-round. I still go up and down, but I can also go around in little circles and I'm on a carousel horse. I've always liked the merry-go-round. I think that fits me better, too. I'm on a neverending circle that doesn't stop but I can jump off once in a while and rest.

Thanks for stopping by Hope and keeping me in your thoughts. But I do hope that my path doesn't follow yours right now, I want to break that trend! So I'll keep hanging on the best parts while I wonder what H is really up to. He hasn't made mention of leaving since we talked a week ago, he was distant most of the week, and when I mirrored him he seemed to warm up just a bit over the weekend and was hanging around the bedroom again.

Must be Give Me a Dog Week. I walked outside for lunch break and a guy was walking into the building and said something to me. I couldn't understand him, it's very loud outside the building and he didn't talk very clear because of all his missing teeth. After he repeated and pointed, turns out he wanted to find a home for a little dog that adopted him. The dog came running over and was springing up and down on his hind legs to get petted. I thought, what a cute little dog I could hold on my lap and cuddle with. NO! turn those thoughts off, I don't need another dog and I DON'T need a house dog. I was already on my to buy more dog food.