Hanging on the Best Parts 2

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Okay, okay, AMD. Now I have to listen to my own advice? geez, how bad does it get? Yes, I did slide this week. That trip H went on really really threw me off track. But I was even more thrown off track when he got back and was cold and rejecting, and still is.

Feel good, for me. Busy is good. I don't like wasting time doing nothing. Believe me, skiing doesn't make me feel good, it makes me black and blue and achy and sore! But it will be at least a month or two before there will be snow in these parts, and then it will be man made snow most likely. But I've got the season pass now.

Got home later than 5pm, and H was here waiting for me! ??? last talk was I would pick up the horse and the lady would be there to help me. H didn't make mention that he would be around. He seemed a bit miffed that I was late. Guess I inadvertantly created mystery. He didn't ask where I was and I didn't offer. Now me not being home within 30 - 45 minutes after work is pretty out of the ordinary for me. I suppose he assumed I'd be here to go get that horse. I was happy that he was along as it made the job much easier, and yes, the lady did comment how easy we made it look to load her horse. I smiled at H.

I did get a short ride on my good horse tonight. It's my therapy and I sure did need it. I do feel better now, a little more capable of dealing with the mess again.

I am scrutinizing budget items. Auto insurance was on my list. I called to check on an idea - put my truck and the white can on a policy for me, and H and truck on his own policy. My idea was that the total package would still be cheaper overall but it won't work. My reason was - we had a bad wreck in May with my truck and trailer and horses, H was driving and it's on his record. Horses and people were all okay but my truck was totalled and the trailer had lots of damage. (Ya know, that's another thing. H never offered any comfort in that wreck. After we got towed off the side of the road and things settled down, and daylight dawned and I saw the damage in the light, I teared up. Emotion, my wrecked truck, hundreds of miles from home, trailer damage, H was emotional too. I reached out and rubbed his shoulder, would have liked a response, but he walked away.) A month later he had a speeding ticket. My idea was let him carry his own policy and I could get cheaper insurance without his record on the same policy. Won't work, in this state if you're married you both have to be on the same policy. But I tried, and can funnel my brain waves on a different item now.