LIW is right--you are a wonderful perosn who deserves wonderful things. It's hard to see that when you feel like hell, but we see it, and it's our job to remind you that you are more than this marriage. I don't mean that you should give up! We are all more than someone else's spouse, even when our marriages are going well.
Zenmaster is also right: you've slid off the road a little here. Aren't you the same WCW who was telling me to stay somewhere between worst-case and best-case scenarios in my imagination and expectations? You were right. And in terms of GAL, it isn't a question of cluttering your life and killing time but focusing on what makes you feel good right now, like skiing and teaching that little girl you write about so enthusiastically. So get back up on that horse and do it for yourself!
