Are you sure our Hs aren't the same person??? Both took a trip, telling us last minute. Both came back more distant than before. Both spew the same lines of crap (almost word for word). Both treat us the same way. And you know what? Both are going to lose women who love them very much.
I know what you're going through. I know what you're feeling. I hate to think that there is anyone else out there having to go through this like I am. It sucks and it's not fair. It's all about them and them being happy, with no care to who they hurt in their search. And in the end, until they fix themselves, they will never find it. But we'll still be left to behind take deal with the pain and lose.
You are such a strong woman. You would have to be to put up with this crap for as long as you have. I couldn't do it after only five months, you've done it for years. Just know I'm thinking of you. No matter what happens I know you will make it and be a better person for it. I honestly believe our happiness is out there somewhere, waiting for us, and we will find it. (my email is dancingwithtime@yahoo.com if you need me)