I'm really sorry that you are having a rough time. I wonder if the short days are effecting you like they do me?
Remember, the only thing that is against DBing is continuing to do things that aren't working.
Okay, something I've been sitting on now...go back and look at your posts before your H's trip. Then look at the posts right before and since. Notice anything? What were you doing differently before and what was the result? What are you doing now and what is the result?
Can I offer my opinion? I think that before the trip you were taking care of yourself and happy, managing to stay a bit dettached to keep yourself healthy, and weren't pressuring your H. And the result was that he slept in your bed a couple of nights and appeared to be warming up a bit. Since then?...you've been pressuring him; been angry with him; delivered some ultimatums. The result: you are pulling away from each other.
Just my observation. I could be wrong.
I know that sometimes it just feels easier to be down and out and not have to work so hard. Maybe get some rest, take a day or two off of the DBing, and then start thinking about what you were doing before that seemed to be generating positive feelings before the trip.
Also, I know that bigAl said to hell with the book, but what are your short term goals? Do you still have them/track them?
