Oh girl. I'm so sorry. But try to look at it as a vacation from him too. It really is. XH is leaving Thrusday and won't be back until Monday. Going 3000 miles away and leaving me with the kids. In the past he would have begged me to take vacation days and go with him. This time, not even an invite. But I'm going to look at it in a positive light (as best I can) and take it as a vacation from the stress of this R. I can come and go as I please and not have to worry about if what I'm doing is okay with XH or not. I know you have a lot going on (in the same boat there) but I hope you find some time for you too. You need it. And deserve it. I'm thinking about you my friend.