Hanging on the Best Parts 2

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I haven't pressured him to crank out anything before his trip, and he hasn't. But some of these things that he doesn't do cannot wait until he gets back, we have meeting deadlines and those meetings are this week. The rest of the stuff at home is mostly day to day that must be done, critters depend on me. We did stop at the store after breakfast on Sunday with my family, and bought a new door knob to replace one which was broke. I changed it while he went about his own business. But it doesn't fit right, can't make it stay latched under pressure. Bummer, but at least it doesn't fall apart in your hand.

This morning I was up early putting a few escapee cows back where they belong. They managed to get a gate open that H didn't chain yesterday, and went on a mission to find their babies. H came out to help just as I got them back thru the gate. Gee thanks, honey. Went back to bed for a few minutes, I was hoping he would join me, but he didn't. I think he's feeling pretty guilty and can't be around me, same as when he was hot with his affair. I've honestly not said much about his trip or asked many questions, nothing since Friday night when he told me. I had about 5 minutes left before I had to leave for work this morning, and H said, did I tell you when my flight is? No. Oh, it's at 2pm. I asked if he was home before that or working this morning to make sure all the critters were where they belonged, he hesitated, said he was home but figured he would have to leave by 11am. I waited at the door, hoping he would come to give me a hug, he was shuffling some paperwork, I said guess I'll see ya, fed the dogs on my way out the porch, I was pretty teared up, he came to the door and watched, and when I looked at him he was teared up too. I got in the little can (my gas saver) and left. I am a mess, had a zillion things I wanted to say or text, and finally just sent something that said I was trying pretty hard but I am a mess, a simple hug from you would have been nice. He replied, okay, will stop by on way to airport. Normally I would drop him at the airport and avoid parking fees for a week, guess he has other plans. Or his he waiting for me to offer? I would, but he has managed to plan this whole trip while excluding me, if he wants a ride and avoid paying airport parking can't he just ask?

I'll sure be glad when the next 3 hours are over. I'm better after the facts of the event than the hours up until it.