Hanging on the Best Parts 2

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Now you know I love you but, CUT THAT SH^T OUT!

Oh thank you, bigAl, it's been so long since I've heard those magic words. And yes, I know! I have to learn to trust again. I want to so bad, I want my world to be real again and I want to believe and feel secure in my beliefs. Somedays are a like Humpty Dumpty, all the kings horses and all the kings men, couldn't put it back together again. But I refuse to think that way, more like the little train guy - I think I can, I think I can..........

I saw a look in her eyes. Within 3 months, my H was starting to pick fights and get restless, and OW was his good "friend".

Wow, VJ, ditto that! Of course, H said I was the one picking fights. OW used to bring her horse over, and I was always uncomfortable with the air between her and H. Couldn't label it anyway other than that. Until.........SHAzam!Bam!POW!

For anyone looking for the update on jumping bones, here it is, but don't get your palms sweaty. I was expecting H home about 6pm last night, not sure why, just from some phone conversations he had the night before. 6:30, no H, and I wasn't surprised, I had the thoughts all day that this was an OW/FF day, Thursdays are usual business for them. Got a txt from H right after those insinuating accusations bouncing in my head, he was at his last appt and gave me quick update. That is one of the sweetest things he has done for me in quite a while. I don't know if he even realizes how much it meant to me, but I did reply with a thanks.

He got home after 8pm, I was still outside, and when I did get in the house he was grubbing up some food. When he was finished with that, I asked if he wanted some popcorn. So I made a bowl of popcorn, that's the only way I could figure to sit next to him and share from the bowl. But he sat as far away as possible on a 2 person couch and then leaned over the arm to be even further. And as soon as popcorn was gone, he was up - doing dishes! cleaning up the kitchen! It was great that he was, but he almost never does! Well, at least now I know how to get him to do that stuff. I went to bed, feeling pretty put out but I figured that was better than pouting about it.

Woke up early today, flipped the TV on while I waited for the alarm to go off. Doesn't that sound silly? H came down the hall and into the bedroom, stood there for a minute, I flipped the covers back, and he got in. Turned over for a back rub, and then returned the favor. And then, yes ! It wasn't all passion and kisses, but it was more for two of us than just for him. By then I was late......rush thru the shower, grab stuff, head out the door. (I did notice the cell phone bill was still unopened on the table.) Busy day at work, but I did call for a model number on our horse trailer so I could get some parts we need, we chatted a few minutes.

And speaking of kisses, there was a song playing on the radio called Shut up and Kiss Me. H knows the song, we used to joke about it. I sent him a txt that it was on and he should do what it says. No response, but I didn't expect one. Light hearted, teasing, slow pursuit.

Patience. If I was a doctor at least I'd be getting paid for my patients.

No big plans this weekend for once, weather should be great, maybe we can get some things done around home before winter sets in. I'll make more popcorn and threaten to sit close! that'll motivate him!