Hanging on the Best Parts 2

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That's not a hijack, I asked! and thanks again. It does sound like you're riding in a Western saddle on a Quarter horse. Flop around on it? oh my, poor horse. Oh! and I should feel bad for you too? This is where chin up heels down REALLY has meaning, and keep your back strait and shoulders back. Better posture will help you ride better.

Rather than face up to the affair and work through it, she just walked away from the marriage

I think that's the easy way out, that's what H was ready to do. I certainly didn't make anything easy for him to walk away, I did plenty things I'm not proud of, but I also felt I had to be pretty drastic for him to grasp that I wasn't letting go without my best effort. Maybe his past relatinships just faded away, but I didn't fade away, I stayed in his face, not always in the right way, but I've gotten better. He still won't face up to the affair, but we are slooowwwwwlllllyyyyy working thru things. Sometimes it feels like we're going about the same pace as a bear in the winter. But we're still both here, and although I'd rather be much further along, I have to hope that all this time getting there will be worth the rewards in the end.

You are right, I don't *need* him, except financially, but oh my do I *want* him! I want the man that made my life complete, that I didn't think was out there, that we would camp and snuggle together under the covers and eat granola bars by flashlight.

Guess I'm not very detached on the inside.