Well you said the blonde was from school so was she your first love?
You know what she wasn't my first love, nor was she ever really a girlfriend, but I know that we had off and on crushes on each other for a long time.
I met her the summer before 4th grade I remember liking her and her friend. Then we ended up changing schools the same year just by chance, so we ended up going to highschool together.
Maybe I dream about her because of having a longtime crush on her. I seen her at a hospital about 20 yrs ago when I was visiting her sister who had just had a baby. I told her sister that Maria looked hot, she was single, but I was already married so thats as far as it went. From what I gathered from her sister, Maria would have been interested if I wasn't married.
So I guess, I probaly dream about her because I was always attracted to her and because of all the BS I have gone through in this R. (Maybe she was my first love and I was to slow to figure it out) I had always considered a girl named Sheri that I dated my 10th grade yr to be my first love.
When I look at my XW I wonder where the person went that I married? Or did I marry someone that seemed energetic, happy, loyal and beautiful but was just covering up her issues?
One thing that kept me from committing to anything with Maria (the blonde) was that her mother was a bit wild. She had a MLC, D and remarried rapidly. I saw reflags, but I didn't see the red flags with my XW until a few yrs into the M.
Anyway they are fun dreams so I don't mind having them.
