I didn't answer "of course" because that was not in the "spirit of the agreement" as I remember it. Although ML was contemplated as one of the options during this time, it was wider in scope than just that. It was supposed to be about touching, getting familiar with one another, being vulnerable.
Maybe I just need to tell W everything that was discussed in the MC session, warts and all. Maybe I need to open up and just tell her that the session turned into one big bitch session where I complained about how we fight, how W wants me to give her A pluses all the time, how I need to just exit the room when we start to fight, and how it's okay to want to make love to my wife. Why keep this information from her? It's like I'm living a secret life, in which I get to *shock* speak disapprovingly of my W, but never never tell her.
Maybe I need to stop keeping my feelings about all this to myself, and just be transparent...hey, that sounds familiar. Wasn't I supposed to be doing this...since about a month ago? Wonder why I stopped. Oh yeah, because she went ballistic about me going out to lunch with a co-worker.
I'm basically at the point where I'm starting to believe myself that it won't make a difference if I tell her everything or not...but I'll be able to live with myself as an honest man.
