Well I re-read the first three chapters of "When Things Fall Apart." I was right, I am so much more able to use what she has to say now. Interestingly, she talks about a state of "groundlessness," and it is so dead on with my astronaught image. I was saying, "that's it, that's exactly it." And then she says that this state of groundlessness or shakiness, this state of being on the brink of the unknown, is a place you want to STAY. Embrace it don't run away from it.
Because, basically, you are always in this place, you just hide from that fact sometimes and THINK everything is stable.
It's starting to sink in. I need more on the benefits of embracing it versus running from it. In theory, it sounds noble, the courageous thing to do. But, in practice...
The other thing she says that I'm grateful for is that you are constantly relearning the same lessons. Whew! what a load of my back. I thought I was just an idiot. "Haven't I made this mistake before? How can I be so stupid to do this again?"
Anyway, piglet, I hope you picked up the book! You asked if I had anymore news about H visiting for Thanksgiving. I talked to him over the phone for the first time in a long time this past week. The only news is that his leave may be canceled. But, I knew that would probably come up as a possibility sooner or later. Always does.
