You know, you've had several posts where you sounded a lot happier and more optimistic than you do in this one. But this may be your best post. You sound very calm and accepting and forward thinking. You have hope but not out of desperation. It just seems like you're centered and willing to stick with this R and make your side of it work over the long term without burning yourself out. If you eventually decide you need to give it up, it won't be because you just can't take it any more. It would be because you've decided it's no longer productive to continue. I think that provides the optimum chance of working things out.
Stay in ths place mentally as long as you can. When you slip, have the tenacity to keep coming back to this place in your head. Nobody can keep themselves centered like this all the time except maybe monks on a mountaintop. But with determination you can always get yourself back to here.
Good luck!
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