There are still a bunch of days to go before the end of the year; maybe you could take a little R break for, say, 5 to 7 of those days? Just recharge the batteries and set your keen mind to analyzing a different topic? Or even relax your mind entirely for awhile (apart from work, of course ). You never fail to hit the nail on the head Bud. I think I've had a sort of emotional breakdown the last week. Spent more time in bed and by myself than I have in the last year, and that's not like me. Our family Dr. that first treated H for depression warned that I needed to take care of myself or I'd be taking a fall soon too. He knows our family well, he went to HS with H and he and his wife are church friends. He also warned that we could see some problems physically, and that we were having a honeymoon phase that would end before the R work was finished. It was a blow to realize his advice was true, but comforting to know this is part of the process for many couples.
So, here we are. I've hit a wall emotionally and can see that it's impossible to maintian this level of vigilance on our R. H sees it too, and I think the backslide in my attitude is giving him insight into how much I've had to maintain, and how important it is for him to be an active part in fixing this. I just can't do it for both of us. I think in the last two weeks it's been as hard to get through to me that this isn't hopeless as it was to get through to him six months ago.
Relax my mind.. that's great advice and I needed to hear that. I think my nose gets me into trouble..haha. Could ya just visit the thread every once in awhile, tell me to take a chill pill, back off and quit thinking? I need to find that joyfull, carefree place I was in before my life came unglued last year. I have a hunch I'm not going to find it until I relax and let go even more. Thanks for the advice! As always, you're a prince!
