Quote: Does she understand where her choices will eventually lead?
I did tell BB that I was moving my things permantely to my bedroom because I have tried so many ways for us to be more like a normally married couple but have been rejected too many times and I was moving because I can't take any more of her refusals. I said if she wants a relationship with me to be anymore than room mate status, she had to do the work and act like she likes having me around. Of course that led to her saying I am asking for too much and what she does is never going to be good enough.
So, to answer your question, BB wants a relationship with me and will act like she does if things are looking like I am about gone, very sick, or if the moon and planets align in some mystical position.
If I am just cool and with drawn, most affection that is considered normal goes to the 3 dogs she plays baby/lover with.
Something different happened last night. BB said one reason she has trouble sleeping with me is, normally I keep her awake and she only sleeps 2 out of 8 to 10 hours. I countered with "that sounds crazy, not logical." To which she said "so now I am crazy?" I said if I kept her from sleeping that much, why did she even want me around. Later she change it to sometimes I keep her awake.
I asked about the cats and dogs chasing and barking keeping her awake. BB said they don't. Just me, the fax calls, and the train that is 2 miles away.
Then BB said since I did not take her telling me, I keep her awake, too well, she would not answer any questions like that again.
Then she said she wants to go back on HRT eventhough she could die from cancer (she had estrogen dependant breast cancer and a lumpectomy) if I would find some estrogen pills on eBay for her. She said since she went off HRT her life has been a mess. She also said I need to find a woman 20 years younger, that she is too old for much physical activity and intimacies. Then she wanted me to hold her and seemed to have an attitude change.
I rubbed her back and she seemed to like being held. She went to sleep and kept close to me. Last month she did not want me near her.
