H is too confusing for words

[Burgbud]

Hey, KDU! I don't think checking up on H is horrible in and of itself. You're starting to make yourself vulnerable to him and you'd like some reassurance that you're not going to get burned right out of the chute. I don't blame you at all.

Just remember that he's not going to like it if you get caught doing it. Whether that's fair or not, he'll be happier with you if he doesn't think you're checking up on him. And you have to watch yourself to make sure you don't get sucked into a kind of paranoia where it almost seems like you're *trying* to catch him doing something he's not supposed to.

If you get to feeling insecure and a good opportunity presents itself, it might be worth it to check on him and hopefully increase your security and confidence with him. But be careful not to go overboard. You're doing so well!