Hey guys and thanks C4Courage if everyone sends positive vibes who knows it might work.
I texted H and said "Did you see OW before work" H: No M: Bl@@dy hell u can't keep avoided this H: I know M: I am just chatting but u no the quicker u do this will show me how serious u r about us. H: I know, I know M: O.K. well at least I can say what I want without u cracking the $hits, that at least makes me happy. H: Ha ha ha M: O.K. will let u get on with work have a good day xxx
H then rang convo went something like this: M: You didn't need to ring, I just ended the conversation H: Yeah I know, but I wanted to M: O.K that's fine was something on your mind H: Yeah a bit, I know exactly what your saying and I respect that, I wanted to tell you I rang her when I got to work. M: Oh O.K. anything worthwhile said H: No not really, she may drop over tonight after work and if she does I wanted your opinion on how I should bring it up. M: You are kidding aren't you H: No, I know its alot to ask but you know I am hopeless and I have to work with her so I am open to suggestions. M: Well all I can say is you never really had a problem saying you had changed your mind to me, so I don't see much difference. H: I know but I don't have to work with you M: True, Look surely she will have noticed that you haven't seen her or really rung her over the last 2 days H: Yes, she would have M: Well she is bound to ask you if anything is wrong or tell you she feels things don't feel right H: That's probably on the cards. M: Well that is your opening and what you say really has to be your choice but be honest as nothing comes back and bites you then. H: Mmmm M: Maybe if she says things don't feel right say you have noticed that as well H: Yeah and she will say I knew this would happen again. M: Probably but just say look ### we were taking it each day as it comes and it just doesn't feel right, I have had time to myself and realise that it is not going to work. I have been realising alot about myself lately and I don't want to hurt you any more than I have. H: Yeah I suppose, I will work it out, I was thinking sort of along those lines so I will go with it when it happens, I have a bit of a plan. I hate to think what work will be like. M: Yeah well, I feel for you but you created it and think of how much better you will feel later when you are not worried about anything and are guilt free. H: Yeah that's true. M: Look how bad was it back in August when you broke up with her and had to go to work. H: Umm not good for about a week but then it got better. M: Well see, you may just have to go through that again. H: Yeah I will cop some grief from the afternoon staff in the Kitchen that she works with but there will also be alot of others that will be very happy that I am back with you as alot have given me grief for what I have done to you. M: Really, oh well, I will help you through it when the time comes, at least some will be happy then. H: Yeah probably more than will be unhappy. M: Well avoid the Kitchen, Tony it is all up to you but you are talking the talk of what you must do but not walking the walk as you haven't taken action. H: Yes I know, I have to do it I can't put it off and I don't want to lose you. M: You wont if you hurry up. H: Yes O.K. either tonight or tomorrow night it will be done. M: Good now goodluck I have to get going. H: O.K. I might text you later. M: O.K. see ya
So that was that if you have bothered to read it all. So again we will see what he does. He sounds so much stronger about it all but again the wind could change direction so I am trying to have faith in him but to also expect the worse. Will let you all know as things happen.....KDU
