Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement but don't get too excited we know how quickly all this can go backwards again, although I don't think I will do it again. Now remember I said this can all change very quick but now for the latest update and hoping it doesn't change in a week.....
H messaged me Monday night nothing much but showed he was thinking of me and I messaged him back so about 2 texts and then we said goodnight to each other all via text messages.....(Don't think I said this in my last post)
Yesterday H rang me to say hi and see how I was, which was cool and he made a mistake by saying if he wasn't seeing OW last night we could go out for a drink. I said, I really didn't need to hear that and no we can't go out for a drink until you have made a decision. H said Fair enough I get what you are saying...
Anyhow about 5.30 just after I had finished work he texts me and says meet me at the pub. I went and we sat down with a drink and I said what is all this about and he said well OW was going out with her Mum and Dad for dinner and he told her he was meeting one of our friends for a drink. I said to him that lying to her was not a good idea and I wasn't comfortable with it. H said I know but I need to see her to tell her what's going on. I said and what is that. H then said "Look Kim I realise that I don't want you out of my life, I want us to try and work on this M, 100% and I am happy to do it the way you want. 9 months is a long time and I know you have waited long enough. I have been a fool and have only just realised what I have done, how much I have hurt you and how much you mean to me.
Well I was quite surprised and said to him, that's fine babe but there is still the problem of OW and until that is fixed, I am not comfortable committing to our R, I am very hesitant due to the past in you ability to being able to finish with OW and not change your mind in a week or when OW says whatever she says. H said that will not happen this time.
I said well I will not wait days and days for this to be done as if you don't do it within the next day or two then it means you do not mean anything you are saying. H agreed and said he would do whatever he could and would hurry up about it, that it was going to be hard as they work together but he knew it needed to be done.
We then settled into having a nice night, we had dinner and drinks and big mistake by me, we ML (Give me a break it's been since August) I know I shouldn't have. Anyhow it was all nice and lovely but I am still apprehensive as he has to walk the walk now with OW.
I can say that he seems more his old self, as though a burden has been lifted from his shoulders and he did actually say something to that affect.
This morning he turned up at my work to have a coffee and to hang around dont really know why but I did say to him at one point "Dont tell me you're hear b/c you have changed your mind already" H laughed and said "You are such a smart @rse" I am hoping to drop in and see OW before I go to work later if that makes you feel any better". I said "It will if you actually do it, we will have to see". H said "You still have doubts don't you" I said "Absolutely can you blame me" He said he couldn't and that he understood.
Anyhow that is about all I have to say at the moment. Not great DBing skills in a way but I am not wavering from what I expect or want and if he can't follow through then there is no point.....
Let's see what happens hey, fingers crossed.....KDU
