Thanks Kismet and Beth - Yes I will not allowed myself to get sucked in, this is his problem and he must deal with it. I will leave it alone and GAL and see when the next time is that he takes steps in my direction - maybe never but somehow I think he will again and I don't know that I will allow it again, I am not sure. I sort of hope not as I have said before it takes some of my feelings with it each time he does this.
I can love him but don't know if that is enough. Maybe I am just in love with the idea of being in love with him (sigh) who knows but no time for brooding must get on with it and if I am really lucky and my luck turns and I win a considerable sum of money I will fly to the U.S and meet alot of you and BB you will be my first port of call - but dont hold your breath any of you as you may turn blue would be nice though and I could bring by Aussie DB friends too...hehehehehe aaaaaahhhh to dream.....KDU
