((((KDU)))) I know you are feeling quite confused with your emotions. I would be too. I think the thing for you to do is to keep being detached and not think too much about H. Those Thursday night outings with H? Keep a rubber band on your wrist to keep reminding you to consider H as your "friendly neighbour" and nothing more. The reason why you are feeling this way is because you are expecting something NICE to happen, H to commit 100% etc. (I know this is SOOOO hard to do. I know how to talk only, but if it was me, I think I will be feeling the same way as you do.)
