Yes so that was my weekend where H is concerned. It's funny b/c he is the one that said he wanted to see how things could go for us and then on the other hand he seems hot and cold.
Other than anything I have already said I have not pursued him and other than the one text message to him, I have not contacted him. He is still happy to keep Thursday night as our night and during conversations yesterday when we had breakfast I did say to him, this does mean that you wont be sleeping with anyone else whilst we are seeing what is happening with us. He said I can't make that promise (WTF) and I said well the other day you said you wouldn't be seeing anyone else and if you can't make that promise to me then it means you are not truly trying to see if we can work it out which is fine but I will stop it all now if you can't guarantee me that. He said O.K. I see what your saying so I can promise that for now and I said O.K. that's all I am asking and if you find that you feel you want to pursue someone else just be honest and tell me so I know. He said that he would but just that conversation on it's own didn't sit real well with me as I don't think it shows alot of committment.
He also said that he loves going to the pub with me but at other times he doesn't feel comfortable. I asked him for an example but he said he couldn't give me one as he couldn't think of one at the moment.(WTF) I said well I can't comment unless I know what you mean and he said I know I just can't give you an example now. I said O.K. we will just see what happens and he seemed fine with that. He did say one other thing though and that was that he hoped he wasn't just trying to build a friendship with me b/c he really wants us to remain friends no matter what and knows I don't really want that so he said he hopes he is not getting the friendship confused with thinking he wants more.
That bothered me and I must say the whole thing is bothering me a bit as I don't know what he wants and neither does he. Alarm bells are ringing and I feel awful that I just don't know him anymore.
I said to the friendship thing that I appreciated that he was being honest in how he was feeling and that was very important if we are to see what is left of our R or M. As if we can't feel comfortable saying what we feel then there is no hope. He agreed and said he knows he is not making alot of sense but that he doesn't make sense very often as I should know. I laughed and said yes well that has been the case in the past but hopefully you will feel comfortable to say what you want as if you are open and honest nobody can condemn you for that as you are entitled to feel whatever you want.
So I am still validated and being happy and easygoing even though I certainly do not feel it.
BB I am with you on one of my thoughts and before anyone tells me not to do it can I just say it is a thought but no action will be taken.
BB I feel as though, if someone asked me out on a date or showed me some interest, I would be very tempted to go, if for nothing else to help me evaluate my feeling for H. I wouldn't do anything at all and would be totally honest with the person I went out with but at the moment feel it would help me realise if there is a future with H. I am wondering if this was sort of how you were feeling with your W, when you said a similair thing on your site???????
Anyhow that's my update, will just keep plodding along but don't know if reconciliation is possible just yet as I don't know that H's heart is 100% in it, I get the feeling that he is 30% committed but doesn't even know what he is committed too.(sigh)..... KDU
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