Well I made a big backslide today. I ran across XW's personal ad that conveyed interests in meeting men and women at nude resorts/beaches for 'fun activities' and confronted her.
She denied everything, then called me "judgmental" - this coming from the woman who called me a perv and never forgiving me for looking at porn ~ 6 yrs ago. Can we say hypocritical.
Anyway, I am a mess emotionally, feeling anger, sadness, frustration. Woud does a real "friend" do if one's friend is acting in such a chaotic fashion - overspending, drinking, now promiscuity...
I think I should have a great time in Vegas and just forget about her, yet I can't fully b/c I have so much baggage, obviously. Plus, I've grown personally so that I can't betray myself as she's apparently doing to herself. How are you all forgetting your spouses who are seemingly going bonkers/MLCing?
At the end of the convo, XW said she didn't want to talk about it anymore and said "I'll talk to you later." But I still expect some sizable damage to our R. But at least things are more real now.
