Thanks for the compliment, Julie. I feel mired in a a sitch with very low odds, so I add as much positivity as I can to offset the drag of the sitch on my life.
Wes, you're right. Things are getting better, overall. This evening, XW came to the house for the 2nd time, and came inside when I invited her to do so while S6 grabbed some things and finished his dinner.
Her being here was odd, as this is her 'free' weekend, and she called to ask if she could take S6 camping overnight. While here, she noted that her social life consists of hanging out with married couples, but I'm taking this with a grain of salt, as I ran across a few new personal adds from her on the web. Fortunately, these are for men, and they seem to be 'normal' in content.
She did the rounds, peaking her head into rooms, commenting how it was clean and smelled nice, and pointing out some decorations, etc.. that I've added, especially in S6's room. She avoided the master bedroom, but I caught her trying to look out of the corner of her eye. Maybe I should have hung some thong panties on the bedpost?
She indirectly asked if I was dating, and when I said "I have", she asked if I had used an internet ad, and I noted "I have." I didn't ask about her. I kept it as relaxed as I could, but I was a bit grumpy/sleepy after staying out a bit too late Fri night with a buddy and then getting baked on the beach with S6 today. XW looked loose and comfortable. She seems intrigued by this possible "friendliness" b/t us.
XW is not as attractive to me as she was in our M. She's skinnier than I've ever seen her (likely smoking, overexercise?), with very fried hair. But she seems healthier than in months past, and I'm hoping that she's getting a handle on any depression that took hold of her. This reminds me that I need to fight off my own depressive funk with yet more self-care.
We'll see where this leads. At the very least, S6 may get to experience both parents friendly under one roof, if only for brief exchange moments. Much better than in a conflictual manner out in a parking lot.
