Very busy today. Scant sleep last night due to lots of work, but had XW's FF a grad student in one of my classes come up and thank me for my efforts, noting that she was amazed I completed what I did while having S6 the past 3 days. I thanked her for the compliment. Hmmm.
XW thanked me for the running shoes last night. I gave them to her in a gym bag that I had been using that was from her fathers work. Its used now, but I made sure to wash it before returning it. I feel better using a new, generic one rather than one that reminds me of someone who allowed his spouse (MIL) to wreak such havoc on my R with XW. No true resentments, just a desire to free myself of unnecessary reminders.
S6 acted up at transfer last night, noting loudly that he wanted to stay with me, not return to her. I tried to calm him down but he was upset and XW got upset a bit as well. He refused a hug from her. Ouch. I felt terrible, and realized later that I could have reassured him about our next time together to offset his worry about the transfer. I know he loves her and misses her. It was just a tough thing to have happen then, especially with her being giving regarding more overnights with me.
XW emailed me has contacted me out of the blue at least 1x/day for the past 6 days. Much regarding S6, but still in a much friendlier tone. Here's to a better R - whatever form that takes.
