K, yep, her stuff that drove us to our current sitch is sizable, but so is the crap I pulled in our M.
I guess right now, I'm giving her space to work on her stuff, and using this time to work on me. Perfecting myself in a sustainable, life-altering way, with no goal other than making myself better. If I end up with her again, that will be wonderful. But I'll be okay regardless.
I watched "Empire Falls" last night - a rental I had to return and hadn't watched all weekend. The dad and daughter have a great R, while the WAW is in obvious confusion turmoil. I found myself keying in on the LBS's detachment and peaceful acceptance of his WAW, even noticed his wearing his ring despite her getting remarried (never mentioned in the story).
Martha, I think you're right about her sexuality. Your depiction of raging hormones is frightening, but yes, she was extremely shut off in that area. I wonder if she'll ever connect the dots and empathize with how I felt as her partner?
Nice convo last night. W called to tell me that she took S6 to get a cranial sacral massage. I was a bit miffed by her not telling me ahead of time, but I kept that to myself, thanked her for doing so, and she seemed to brighten at that.
Hmmm, treat myself in a more Venusian way. I have been taking way better care of my appearance. I'm not quite a metrosexual, but I've improved that quite a bit. In terms of just mere self-care, I can do better. Thanks for that.
