You are right, I know it, and I think everyone else on this board does too.
I just don't really know how to explain how I feel, but I'll try. I think to myself, boy wouldn't this be great to do (some new hobby, etc.) and as soon as the thought that it would be about me sets in and not involve other people, there is this sudden pall over the whole issue. It is also like a dagger just strikes my heart and I start to feel sick to my stomach. I would rather be in intense physical pain than be alone. Maybe I have some sort of OCD about companionship. Is that making any sense?
Anyway, despite how I feel I gotta just push past it. I'm trying, and your encouraging words and the words of others does help. I just wish I had some IRL friends that I could talk to like this.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
