"The other part was to show that though Cobras thoughts make sense they are not a sure thing." I am getting some very different perspectives here from different people. Sometimes it is confusing, but mostly it is helpful
" hope you work through this emotion I do not feel it is benifical for your mental health IMO." Worked through the suicide feelings, but still feel disgust at myself for thinking that way. It will pass. You have to remember, the only person who I could really talk to throughout all of this awakening experience was OW. So when that ended, I was pretty lost.
"And that your grief may have seemed selfish to her when at that moment she should have been allowed to be the one grieving. And no instead of being angry about what you had done she is holding on to just that." An interesting possibility that maybe we can explore in the C sessions. I was definitely a weird situation for my W, I'm sure.
"In my case it is not just the loss of the person but the support that they have given me throughout this life time that I miss." I feel somewhat the same way, but of course my EA was much shorter. She really gave me a lot of emotional support and made me feel good about myself like I never have before, and may never again.
"Six years from now if I need them they will be there for me. It is how it has always been between us." That's kinda what has me lingering a bit. I am waiting to see how things turn out with her husband, not so I can jump into a relationship with her if it goes sour, but I would like to be able to help her like she helped me. I think she feels the same way about me if things go sour in my marriage. I know it is probably a dumb thing to hold onto, but it is hard to let go.
"I am filled with gratitued not guilt." I am filled with both. The pain I inflicted upon my wife and her husband give me great guilt. But I also feel an incredible amount of gratitude to her for the caring that she showed me and the awakening to my true self that she led me too.
I have no idea if my W seems my emotional self as being manly or not. She has never said one way or the other.
Baby pooh is something I will not miss at all. Unfortunately, the twins are regressing a bit with the newborn giving them a bad example of how to get attention (by crying all the time). Fun times for sure.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
