I don't mind re-hashing it for you. Thanks for the implied offer of help.
No, the W really doesn't want to talk about it, nor much of anything else really. I am telling myself (and hoping) that it is just being tired from all the newborn baby work. It makes sense that being tired she wouldn't want to talk about sensitive issues. I'm sure I still press the issue a bit too much, because I am such an impatient person. I hope I am not digging a deeper hole by not being patient.
She has only asked a few questions, and there was actually one tonight. On Cobra's advice I apologized again for what I did and asked for her forgiveness. She said she forgives me, but isn't happy about it. There was a pause for a few minutes, and then she asked me a question about our professional interaction. I told her it was still there, but it had greatly diminished to what was necessary to complete the work the group she and I are in had started. She didn't say anything in response, but that may have been due to an extraordinarily loud poop that erupted from S<1 just at that moment.
I told her the night that OW broke it off with me. You may think initially that it was out of self-preservation, but it really was a combination of depression and guilt crashing in on me. Her reaction was very muted to say the least. She basically said she was unhappy about it but she forgave me. She asked a few questions about her, but nothing about details of the EA. I keep waiting for the ball to drop, but it never has. I'm convinced that the pressures of a newborn are affecting her ability to deal with it, but her reaction is still disconcerting to say the least. Granted, what little affection she was showing me did diminish a bit, but it was hardly noticeable. We had already stopped having sex due to the pregnancy and nursing so that wasn't a response.
Any thoughts you might have or additional questions are welcome. Even if they are harsh.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
