"if you get any kind of emotional reaction out of her, that's good. Exchanging feelings is good. You CANNOT ruin this marriage with one conversation. YOU and your feelings are not dangerous to her. Revealing yourself will not hurt her." I'm not so sure I completely agree. It seems like every time I open up and am completely honest with her about an issue, she just gets upset and/or clams up. I'm going to post a little bit later after I answer the others about what happened tonight.
"They are part of who you are-- the fun, the sexiness, the playfulness, the imagination. Those are yours and no one, not even your W, can take them away from you or out of you. Do you understand that?" The problem is I can feel it inside me but it doesn't have an outlet. When I am at work I have to be careful about how I interact with people based on my job. When we go out to do things it is mostly with her family, so I can't be myself there. And when I get home I just mostly feel as if the rug gets pulled out from under me. I know in your heart that you are right, but I just don't feel as if there is any acceptance of the new me in my life, so there is this battle between who I want to be and who it seems the people in my life want me to be.
You are right it is like a switch that I can't turn off though, hence my daily angst. It would be easier to just fold up the happy sexy globule right now, but I can't do it.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
