"gone from not caring if my H went outside of marriage" WOW! I haven't had a chance to read through your story yet, but I can't imagine the pain it would take for you to get to that point. Actually, I almost can. I know this may sound weird but I almost wouldn't care if my wife had a PA. At least it would make it clear to me that she CAN be physical when she wants.
"really cultivating the HD side of me" That is what I want to know more about. If somehow my wife would just start getting in touch with her physical desires (the must be in there somewhere), it would go a long way to fixing our problems. I know I've got a lot of problems too, but I've got a mindset to fix them.
"H is not positively responding to the changes I've made" Well, let me put it to you this way, and I don't say this to make you feel bad about your situation. If I saw my wife even trying to come my way a bit, you can be 100% sure I would notice, I would help as much as I could, and I would be VERY grateful (in whatever way she wanted). I'm sorry your husband is not that way. From what I am hearing about HD/LD on this board, the change that you made is an amazing one and speaks well of you as a person. Be proud of that. You have given me a lot of hope just knowing your story.
I'll definitely find the time to read your old threads, but again if you have any brief nuggets of wisdom about LD wives or transitioning to HD, feel free to "pollute" this thread with them.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
