dealing with the whispers

[Pipeliners_wife]

I don't really have alot of choices in this. Either I'm happy or I'm not. Doing what I've done makes me happy, and others around me.

I'm soooo excited about this weekend. A group of my closest girlfriends and I are headed to the city to go out to the bar and stay in a hotel. Usually I stay with my parents, but this time I decided to make it a really special weekend. My parents are babysitting both kids, and I'm getting right pissed. I deserve it!!!! And I've waited along time to do so. I am still a little bitter that I couldn't drink my worries away when H and I where in hell land for that period. Too many times I wished I could pass out without anyworries, but being pregnant I had to do this the sober way. Its still painful to look at the side of the bed that I use to sleep on and remember learning the god awful truth. I have since switched sides I sleep on to try and forget about that nightmare. It works most nights.

So here's some wonderful news.... FINALLY night after night of hoping to be a really family, my H has landed a contract to weld and pipeline in one spot for 14 months solid, and after the 14 months, they will resign for him to work until the end of 2008. What this means is, he will be in one spot and the kids and I will move to where he is staying and be a really family where dad works during the day, and comes home at night. We've never done that. Dad works away from home and visites everytime he has time off. NOT only that, but we've expanded our company, so we'll be making 2X the money. I'm so excited for him to get the once in a life time chance, and for me to have a full time husband. I have a feeling I'll be posting a little more often once the move takes place. Usually after a few weeks I get sick of him and want my own schedule back ( those who know what I'm talking about will understand that)

I'm excited too that H will see the baby grow and do all the firsts. He missed that with D2.

What a wonderful ride I'm on this week!