Today's thought is:

God gave burdens, also shoulders.
--Yiddish proverb

Some days we wake up, and we know we can't get out of bed. We lie there, trying to force ourselves, but none of the usual motivations work. We may be depressed, we may be grieving, or we may simply be tired. It's hard to resist the temptation to believe that everyone else is functioning with ease. They all show up for work. What's wrong with me? The more frantic we become, the more likely we may lapse into old ways of thinking and behaving in order to get moving.

If we feel we can't get out of bed, there's usually a good reason why. We can give ourselves permission to discover it. By being honest, we will discover how to take care of ourselves. Maybe it's a day to stop and nurture ourselves, not force ourselves to keep going. Only we know what we really need. We do not have to compare ourselves to others or apologize for what we are going through. Instead, we can be gentle, giving our bodies, emotions, and spirits what they require. We can turn the day over to God's will.

I pray for the willingness to make this a day of healing. I will be part of my own renewal.



Finish Journaling....

I was talking to my sister the other night in messenger and she had been drinking, which is probably why this all came out. She says things are hard...her H was away for Basic Training in the Guards and then went to school and he was gone a total 6 months. She was home with baby and 3 year old. She says they are having tough time adjusting. She says she feels like she is a "loner" meaning she felt better when she was doing things on her own. Honestly, I think she drinks too much, but didnt tell her that. Anyways, all the things she was telling me were like the same things that H had told me when he was going through his "thing". It freaked me out! I dont want this to happen to my sister? She said that they just need time. But I told her if she doesnt talk to her H about this and they try working on things, time will NOT make it better. It will only get worse! Of course she kept on saying, its not same as us..blah,blah, blah. Its so hard to see someone you love headed in same direction you were just in a year ago. How can I get her to see that by "doing nothing" things will never get better? I am going home this week for Thanksgiving and H wont be coming. Maybe I can get her to talk to me a bit more. I guess thats all I can do, right?

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Well, things on MY homefront are going very well. H and I have been spending lots of quality time together, laughing, talking and even still learning new things about each other. But, there is still one of my goals that we have not reached in our M. Its the affection...no kidding, right?! Well, I found a couple things in the book, "His Needs, Her Needs" and ran them off and highlighted the things for my H to read. They pretty much explain what I have been wanting to tell him, but I think maybe reading it in a book my have more of an impact. Any ways, I am going to give it to him b4 I leave for Thanksgiving and ask him to read it. I guess we will see how that goes!