You know as long as I dont get "too personal" her Remember that DBing is about YOU not your H. Its about knowing yourself and making changes to make yourself grow. So I am trying to get into the practice of saying how I feel right away, as long as I know it will come out right. very good to not hold onto the feelings but be carefull about the "as long as I know it will come out right". Over time this can stop you from expressing your feelings. You can't walk around on egg shells Try the After the Affair site http://members3.boardhost.com This site has posts that help you to understand the feeling you are having and how certain things will trigger the memories and bring back old feelings.