*hugs* that's a wonderful post! And that was a wonderful example of AOS. You rock! You completely took a sitch that wasn't the greatest and you really showed him a good side of you! Good for you!
The key to succeeding in marriage is NOT finding the right person; it's YOU becoming the right person. We'll get back to that point in a moment.
Did you know that women who finally get out of abusive relationships usually fall in love with another abusive man? What bad luck, right?
It's not luck.
Did you know that men whose first wives cheated on them usually get cheated on by their second wife too?
How could that be? You'd think that after suffering the torment of infidelity a man would only marry a woman with impeccable morals and unwavering commitment.
You'd think?but it doesn't work that way.
People are not as you see them; people are as YOU are.
What do you get when you smile at someone? You get a smile back. And if you stare at someone? You get a stare back. What you get is what you are.
We're NOT an objective observer of the people in our life; we're a subjective influence. In other words, our presence changes what we observe.
Let me give you a simple example. Let's say you wanted to measure the temperature in a small room. So you bring a thermometer into the room and wait for a reading. But since your body temperature is 98.6 degrees, the fact that you're in the room changes the reading you get. As long as you're there, things are different.
It works the same in your marriage. Your relationship is not simply a function of who you pick; it's also a function of who you are.
Who you are and who your spouse is mixes to form the dynamics of your relationship. I know you want your spouse to change. And YES your marriage would be better if they did. But YOU changing can change things just as well.
Now, please listen carefully and please don't misunderstand my point. I'm NOT saying that everything is your fault. If your spouse receives my emails, then they're reading the same message directed to THEM. It's no ones fault; but it's everyone's RESPONSIBILITY. In other words, BOTH you and your spouse contribute to the dynamics in your relationship, whatever they are, and BOTH you and your spouse can single-handedly change them.
No matter what your spouse did to cause your marriage to deteriorate, they're responsible. And they should change. But you played a role too. I know that's hard to hear. It's a bitter pill to swallow. But once you swallow it, you're no longer a helpless victim; you become empowered to change circumstances that seemed out of your control.
It's easy to confess your spouse's sins. And you're probably correct about what your spouse needs to change. But it does no good to be right. And it's a complete waste of time and energy to focus on your spouse's problems. There's nothing you can do about it. Your spouse will change only when they're ready to change. The only relevant question for you is: What's YOUR fixing?
You had a role in the deterioration of your marriage. I have never seen a marital situation caused by one spouse. There's always dual responsibility. What can YOU do to improve the situation?
Reflect on your past relationships. Do you see a pattern? Look at your parent's marriage. Are you recreating the model you saw when you were a child? Have you explored with a professional the childhood roots of your relationship habits and how they contributed to your marital circumstances?
Even if your spouse had an affair, you're partly responsible. That doesn't mean that it's your fault and it doesn't excuse your spouse's inappropriate behavior, but the question still remains: What was your spouse seeking outside your marriage that was not available within it?
Don't just sit there sulking in the misery of your situation while you wait for your spouse to change or for God to perform a miracle. If you want your situation to change, then change it! Do YOUR part. Because if YOU change, then everything around you changes too.
Now there is one more important point. You might be thinking, ?Mort, I have changed. But my situation has not.? Change itself is not good enough. You've got to make the right changes. Like a scientist, you have to know EXACTLY what changes to make to get the outcome you're looking for.
Why I let the "little" things bother me, I just dont know. But I do....things are great!! Getting better every day!! But, last nite, when we were in bed, H turned to go to sleep and I said, "can I get a kiss goodnite and on the lips, cause your face is scruffy." He said, "no its not" and that was it. WHATEVER!!! What the hell!! It would have taken him 2 seconds to lift up his face so I could kiss him on the lips!! WHY WHY WHY!! I know..take my own advice, be patient, it will come in time...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I just dont understand what the big deal is with him???? Its not like I am aksing him to make out or asking him to kiss me in front of people..we are in bed, going to sleep!!! Oh well, guess I wont try that for a while again...i just get upset...not worth it!
They bother you because they're not really "little" things. If they were "little" things, they would only happen once or twice. But he does this to you a lot. And I know how much it bothers you because this isn't the first time you've mentioned it. I can't remember, but have you ever sat him down and talked about it? (I know that sounds scary) But if it's really bothering you, maybe it's time.
Ang- what happens if you just kiss him without asking? Just give him a quick smooch, say good night and roll over? Grab him by the scruffy cheeks and plant one on him.
Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.
I know hun, I know. I remember missing the kisses. It was such a weird thing. Kisses seem so trivial, but when someone witholds them...BIG thing. In my "heat it up" phase, he would have sex with me, but he wouldn't kiss me. Funny that kissing became the more intimate act. Anyway. I know, I really do. It will come. Keep tending the goose, and it will start laying those golden eggs.
Have a great day!
Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.
Well, last nite, I just puckered up, kissed him on the lips and said goodnite. I guess its time I just keep taking what I need until he's willing to give, right?
But what if, because I am always taking, he never does give?? Hmmm, thats a thought to ponder.....
Its not like I am aksing him to make out or asking him to kiss me in front of people..we are in bed, going to sleep!!! 