I am a very proud mommy today. Last night for Halloween I took Hannah to the park by the house because she is still only 20 months and wasn't really interested in the trick-o-treat thing. She won 1st place at the parks costume contest. My little lady bug won most adorable....so cute! To be honest I was a proud mommy before last night but that was the cherry on the sunday.....LOL!
Still trying to stay happy! I wish everyone the best!
WCB and KDU... Thank you for asking! Actually I am doing really well...of course I have my moments but I am really giving it my all to let go of things/thoughts. I am getting really sick of being unhappy or sad. I am really proud of how good I am doing...or at least starting. I am trying not to give into his attempts to argue or pick on me....I want to be the mommy that Hannah deserves
Update! I guess I am doing good at this...in my eyes! I haven't called H in weeks except if was completely necessary and regarding Hannah. Are you ready for this? I have a date on Friday night...I am so nervous! I feel really weird but I think that it will be a good thing...at least for some food and good talking. Wish me luck. H and I have just been pretty much ignoring eachother and it isnt really bugging me....I have been getting so many compliments on how happy I seem to be lately...Thank all of you!
Hello Everyone.....Its been awhile. Things are going pretty good. I can say that this DB stuff really works...and for people like me that couldnt give their all to it in the beginning....Wow! What a turnaround.
I finally gave up. I started doing my own thing completely..I DID become happier...H must have seen the difference. H calls me at least 5-6 times a day letting me know how much he screwed up and how much he loves me. The sad thing is that I dont know if that is what I really want anymore. I told him that I need my space and time...now he thinks that I am having an affair...kinda makes me laugh. H is now the frusterated one...he hates that its the other way around...and he tries to argue because he wants us like it was before his affair....well my new outlook is for ME to be happy. If that is with or without him. I am a new happy me again and we will just have to see what that brings.
My thoughts to all of you is that I pray for you every night to not hurt and find yourself and be happy. Gosh! If I can do it believe me you CAN too! My heart is with all of you!
I agree with you so much about DB'ing. I wish I had known about this when I first found out about my H.'s affair.
When I finally came here, and bought/read the books my attitude changed a lot, and it helped my situation SO much. H. has really responded to the changes, and now I see him changing for the better. It's like we have become the best of friends again--and we weren't for a while.
So, congrats to you on your happiness, and I hope things work out the way you want them to.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
