Three years? Well, that makes me feel somewhat better I guess. Progress can be made but I can understand how despite the progress you can be just kinda standing there putting all your body weight against a closet bursting full of resentment. What I hear behind your words is a sentiment I often feel, "GD H, how hard is it really to kiss your wife, compliment her sexually and pat her @ss a couple of times every day?" The next thought that follows is, "If it is so dang difficult why did you marry me in the first place or why do you stay?" The mere fact that at least you are able to verbalize the words now and are ML regularly is a good sign. Mrs. Nop described the beginnings of their schedule on a thread and compared to that I think you are doing pretty well. I realize that you aren't on a schedule but H is at least showing up in the BR on a regular basis. Hopefully, the rest will come.