"Is what I want impossible for the Normal Male to attain?" Don't know if I am a normal male, but its not impossible for me. In fact it is pretty darn easy for me to show my W I desire her. And I can't imagine she has any misunderstandings about that part of our relationship.
"does weird things to me. It used to make me want to seek that attention out from others, but now it just perplexes me." Right on sister. It does weird things and perplexes me too. Although not as much as it did before I started talking to you folks.
"or all the other "or's" that I could list but won't" I'll list some more. Never stared at with obvious desire Never hear something kinky whispered in your ear (like that darn carnival thing, thanks a lot Hairdog ) Never hear those words "I want you NOW!" Never feel a heavy weight on you as you wake up in the morning (unless its a heart attack) Never ...
OK. I'd better stop. I think I'll go throw up now ... my stomach hurts.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
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