Lil, The pain has been nil while I am about my daily life and then bam, it came back while I was doing my duty and shaking my booty the other night. I gasped in pain and H thought it was a pleasurable gasp and I just went with it.
I am having a helluva time dropping the rope about the book. DO NOT ask me why; I have no idea why I've latched on to this. I have just lowered myself to snooping. How low can I go? He ordered a book from Amazon and it arrived today. I had to go a snoopin to see if it was what he promised. It wasn't but it's a present for me, that I've now ruined.
I gotta get a grip. On some levels I feel that I have come a long way and on others I feel that this Giving Up My Relationship Police Badge campaign is going horribly. I need Officer Corri in my real life to take me out for a drink (bourbon and water, I'm thinking) and knock some sense into me. I have completely dropped the rope as it pertains to all other aspects but it's like all that energy has now been channeled into this one thing.
However my promise to you is this: I'm dropping it today. To-day. Today today today.
