Just wanted to update everyone. I have struggled and struggled about going home. Was I ready? Can I move forward with my H? Can we put our M back together when I have so much contempt for him? Well, I decided that I would take a huge leap of faith and go home. I have been home for over a week now and I have to say, it feels so right! I've started doing some of things I use to enjoy. Decorating the house, a little yard work, making plans on how to make the yard look better, painting some rooms, etc. I think I've finally arrived. My H and I cuddle with each other at night and it seems so special. He told me last night that I was a beautiful woman. That was out of the blue but I rather enjoyed hearing that from him. I believe that he is truely committed to our M and for that I owe it to myself to try and make this M work so at the end of the day, I won't look back and regret things if I didn't at least try. We went to MC last week and we told each other that because neither of us gave up, it shows how much we really and truely love each other. I looked at my MC and told him that I think this will be our last session. He agreed. We're off and running and we won't stop running until we win this race! I think we're going to make it!
